What.
The. Fuck.
First
of all, I hate when people knock too many times on your door. Knocks
on the door are a tolerable intrusion at the best of times, and only
because they herald the bringing of lovely things, but when someone
raps 5+ times on my front door with a sense of entitled urgency
audible through the house, it makes me unhappy. I'm trying to
restrain myself here, because this isn't really part of the story.
I
heard one of these obnoxious knocks at the door just now, and left my
room to answer what I thought would be one of four or five deliveries
we get every week. I opened the door and a gaunt, pasty smackhead,
stoned out of his mind with a half-smoked, unlit cigarette in one
hand, stood before me. He was swaying.
The
first thing that struck me was that this person must have summoned up
all of their strength to execute the knocking that had caught my
attention, because as he stood there on my front doorstep it looked
as if any change in local air pressure would have him reeling on his
ass. I've heard plenty about the miraculous feats of balance addicts
are capable of (see: David Cross, 'Bigger and Blackerer') but to
witness something like this first hand was really a wild ride to
Silly Town.
Then
he asked me if I had seen his dog. “I've lost my dog... it's a
little shitzu... if you find it... I'll give you my number...”
Normally
I would have been excited about this... actually, scratch that, I WAS
excited about this... but not yet. I was a little worried, or maybe
just anxious for this insane interaction to be over, so that my
excitement at having had something dumb happen to me today could kick
in. “Who are you, ridiculous person?!” I could hear myself
preparing to ask. I could hear the story formulating itself in my
head already. I love telling stories... I just had to wrap this thing
up, this beautiful present that the world had offered me up. Saturday
afternoon in Richmond. 3121.
“...uuuh...
yeah okay dude.” was all I had... and all I really needed to be
honest. The guy had probably forgotten that he'd offered me his
number, or that he'd asked me where his dog was, or that he'd ever
had a dog (did he ever have a dog?) or what a dog even
was. We stood there for a second in silence – just a second, but
long enough for it to be mutually understood that our time together
was at an end – and then I stepped back a fraction, and began to
close the door, looking at his face as I did so. His face looked back
at me, and then turned, with the rest of his body haphazardly
following it, before disappearing from my view. I heard the gate
open, so I know he's not asleep on the couch out the front right
now... that's good. I'd to go past there at some point.
It's
strange that we live here, so close to the barely-beating heart of
the heroin scene in Melbourne's inner East. It's weird to see people
consumed with a half-life, stalking the streets every day, I often
wonder what their day-to-day lives are like, even though the mystery
really isn't hard to guess at. Today though, I didn't have to wonder,
I got to peek in, I was allowed the rare opportunity to gaze over the
edge and into the blackness in the abyss, just for a second. Only a
glimpse. Initially I was angry for the intrusion, then spiteful...
but that was just a reflexive reaction. Enjoy your heroin bro, it's
your choice, and as far as I can tell you're not hurting anyone –
it doesn't hurt to be woken up from idle daydreams every now and then
by a bit of reality. That's the reason we live here.
I'm
going to get lunch now. The pasty, white ghost with whom I shared a
twenty second conversation at 2:45pm this afternoon will probably
start feeling sick before sunset. I hope he finds somewhere warm to
crash, some downers to help him sleep, and a lighter for his unlit
ciggie.
Happy
Saturday.
Peace,
Taco.
(To read my thoughts on this encounter a few days later after some interesting information had come to light, click here)
(To read my thoughts on this encounter a few days later after some interesting information had come to light, click here)
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